Yesterday, No 1 showed a video about a child who untied the knot in her heart and managed to open up about her father's death. I was on the verge of tearing. Why was I so emo? Then I thought of him. Yes, it must be because of him.

Then this morning, I heard this old Kit Chan song on the radio. It's a song asking someone to walk out of their dark word and reach out to those around them. It made me think about him again. If only he reached out.

It's been almost 2 years. But I cried once more tonight for him despite trying to keep it all inside.